I Could Never Be a Prosecutor General

I could never be the Prosecutor General. I could not even be a deputy prosecutor general, or a deputy to a deputy, and judging by everything, I would never even become a simple district prosecutor, because I feel sorry for everyone. And I would be a very bad judge, a terrible judge, because I would be biased and unfair, and I would hand down the mildest sentences.

I look at the faces in the aquarium-like cages and I cannot help myself: I feel sorry for them. If they started demanding an ambulance, fainting, or wrapping themselves in a checkered blanket, I would not feel sorry for them, but as it is, they sit with their noses hanging down, waiting, and I feel sorry for them.

I understand perfectly well what each of the already jailed and those who are yet to be jailed characters is, I know more or less how many "corpses" hang on each of them, who fed where and who stole, and who has not just an unclean conscience but two cauldrons in hell, so that if one breaks they can move to the second without pause in the torment, but still I feel sorry for them. You see, they did all this because it was allowed. Unwritten rules opened a corridor of opportunities for each of them, and they used it. But then, suddenly and without warning, the rules changed, and it turned out they were criminals. It is like the dollar being 8 yesterday and 24 today, and you stand like a fool at the exchange office with a bag of paper, not understanding how it happened. The commandant of a concentration camp cannot know that in five years the Nuremberg Trials will take place; he acts according to the rules of the system he is in! It is unfair to say that the law is the same for everyone and at the same time demand human decency and humanism, which you as a person must build on top of the law exclusively through the effort of your own will and understanding! It is like demanding that a wolf not eat the bunny, even though the law of nature gives him the right to five bunnies a week.

Roughly speaking, that is how I reason.

And probably, if those who sit in cages today had reasoned the same way, they would not have needed that power, money and other perks they received, for which they will now pay due to the change in public rules. Because one must look inside oneself, not at new watch models in jewelry stores. More precisely, one can and sometimes should look at watch models, but only after looking inside oneself.